She uses me like puppet, makes me feel everything—my horn, broken. My hand... [ nearly ripped from her wrist, she can't stop seeing it in her mind's eye ] I am being apologizing all day, I wish—
[ stops herself, for a moment seething again. no. no. no, she doesn't wish that. ]
[ stops herself, for a moment seething again. no. no. no, she doesn't wish that. ]
[ if she has her way, he will never know how bad it got. how many people she hunted, how many people just left her, and how many fought back with the real intent to kill if they had to.
that's what she keeps saying she wanted, but the reality of it is not so cut and dry. she's always going to remember the crunch of her arm as Ruggie bit it in two. she's always going to remember Lotor's face twisted up in an intensity of spite she never before ascribed to him. she's always going to remember Alec Brennan's fucking arm around her throat. ]
I wish she never looked at anyone but me. I am sick of swallowing my words to let everyone else say what they think.
that's what she keeps saying she wanted, but the reality of it is not so cut and dry. she's always going to remember the crunch of her arm as Ruggie bit it in two. she's always going to remember Lotor's face twisted up in an intensity of spite she never before ascribed to him. she's always going to remember Alec Brennan's fucking arm around her throat. ]
I wish she never looked at anyone but me. I am sick of swallowing my words to let everyone else say what they think.
[A smile.]
Then, after that, wherever else you would like to go.
[He would like to see what a world like Arthur’s has to offer. Every one is so different, unique.]
And someday, when we are free of this place, you will be able to visit me in the real Dreaming, too.
Then, after that, wherever else you would like to go.
[He would like to see what a world like Arthur’s has to offer. Every one is so different, unique.]
And someday, when we are free of this place, you will be able to visit me in the real Dreaming, too.
[ a vein in her jaw flickers, abject ]
Arthur, do you think Basilisk wins enough tokens for that?
Arthur, do you think Basilisk wins enough tokens for that?
I know! But I can't.
[ she takes his face in her hands, smoothing and coddling, to make him look at her.
or.... to make herself look at him. ]
Do you understand it? If I let her go, then she is out there again. Perhaps something worse will fill me. I can control her. I will.
[ she takes his face in her hands, smoothing and coddling, to make him look at her.
or.... to make herself look at him. ]
Do you understand it? If I let her go, then she is out there again. Perhaps something worse will fill me. I can control her. I will.
[Any and all of it. He would love to see it.]
Yes and no. It is a hollow representation because it is missing an essential few. Mostly, Lucienne, the chief librarian. Or Mervyn, found straightening up every corner of the Dreaming. It is strange, too, not to hear the beating wings of my raven, Matthew.
Yes and no. It is a hollow representation because it is missing an essential few. Mostly, Lucienne, the chief librarian. Or Mervyn, found straightening up every corner of the Dreaming. It is strange, too, not to hear the beating wings of my raven, Matthew.
Not captured as well as I would like, no.
[And it would make him miss this place too much, when there is not yet a way to really return.]
He is my messenger, able to travel between the waking world and the Dreaming without issue, when I am otherwise busy or unable to do the same. He was once a mortal man, after all; for him, it is a simple task.
[And, well, SINCE MATTHEW ISN'T HERE TO HEAR IT-]
He is also a friend.
[And it would make him miss this place too much, when there is not yet a way to really return.]
He is my messenger, able to travel between the waking world and the Dreaming without issue, when I am otherwise busy or unable to do the same. He was once a mortal man, after all; for him, it is a simple task.
[And, well, SINCE MATTHEW ISN'T HERE TO HEAR IT-]
He is also a friend.
[ not even she can say why she does what she does. you simply have to decide whether she is worth enduring it. ]
I have hated this day. We do not speak of her any more. Let her rot in back of my mind.
I have hated this day. We do not speak of her any more. Let her rot in back of my mind.
[ too good to her. she thumbs his cheeks indulgently. ]
Shoulder massage.
Shoulder massage.
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